I think

Sometimes I think I've lived too long,

but then I realize I'm still a child,

only 15,

but yet, in my head,

I feel as if my life is nearly done,

and I've been told I'm as wise as old adults,

and that makes me think I've lived too long,

and it holds me back from living,

my wisdom makes my fears,

and keeps me from doing so much,

and it keeps me wondering when will it be over,

and I've been told to loosen up,

when that just makes me tighter,

which makes me think I've lived too long,

making my mind my only safe place,

finding new fears around every corner,

acting like a young child,

to forget I feel like a 60-year-old,

and I just want a break,

or lose this wisdom,

so maybe I can live,

so that makes me think I've lived too long,

but then I realize I'm an adult,

stuck in the body of a teen,

with the wisdom of a grandfather,

living a busy life,

without a break,

so sometimes I think I've lived too long.