Self-Confidence

Self-confidence comes and goes

There are moments I feel invisible

Like I could go anywhere

Be anyone

Do anything

And it would all be ok

But then there are other times

When I wish I could blend in

When I forget how to use my voice

I am shy beyond control

I can’t be part of big social situations

I hate being the center of attention

But sometimes,

When I am in a place I’ve never been

Surrounded by people I don’t know,

I become someone else

I become confident

And outgoing

And easy to talk to

I can’t control my confidence

It controls me

It decides when and where

It wants to come out of hiding

Some have too much self-confidence

Some have too little

I long to be one of those people

With the perfect amount

The people

Who don’t think too highly of themselves

But still have self-respect

Who can talk to anyone

And not get nervous

They don’t need to be the center of attention

But don’t freak out when they are

They say self-confidence can be improved

But I’m not sure that’s true

Sometimes, I think I’m too far beyond help

I can’t fix how awkward I am

Or how hard it is to have conversations

But I’ll work on it

As much as I can