Trying to Drown

One month.

One month since you went away.

They're talking about death and drowning;

About how they're friends.

I wish I could drown today.

I'm tyring to slosh on

Through the tears you left me in.

I'm just sinking and sinking,

But neighter heaven nor hell's lights are blinking.

It's not my time to break; I can only bend.

Empty forevers

Crash down like a tsunami wave.

I'm trying so hard to find solid ground,

But the sands and tides toss me around;

Not one part of me do they save.

In this one month,

I hope Heaven gave you a really fine crown.

It feels so damn empty without you;

Life gives me nothing to do

But live while trying to drown.