Blood courses painfully in little knots

agony tearing me apart in marching muddy feet

leaving devastation and destruction in its wake

I wonder if recovery will ever be destined for me

soggy footprints heading off into the horizon.

I fight to restore the quietude that I had known

as I sit by the peaceful marsh which bathes me

in streams of empathy and absorbs the sound

of my broken heart hammering in unison

with the whispering breezes of soft harmony.

White herons hide in camouflaged grasses

while I bury shadows from my sorrow

serenity harbors my hopes for new tomorrow

and washes away the shame of the past.

The world seems to be falling

Slowly

Crumbling

Under the pressure

I’ve forced upon it

There’s no way to fix this

No way to say I’m sorry

No way to make it up

You can’t reverse death

All you can do

Is be kind while people are here

You never know

When the words you speak to someone

Will be the last

I’ve learned that the hard way

I spend too much time

Thinking about

What I should have done

I should have apologized

I should have held you tight

I should never have let you go

Why did I tell you to leave?

Why didn’t the car see you?

Why couldn’t it have been me?

To say I’m devastated is an understatement

I have lost the love of my life

And you will never know

How much I loved you

Or how stupid I know I was

So let's leave the lights off and forget about our sins

(You know we've both done things we're not proud of)

Sink into the blankets like they're ocean waves

Drown in each other's presence and the inky blue

I just want to swim next to you

I'd become your bed of kelp,

Your favorite fish or coral.

But this isn't working,

Because you'd rather be in space.

You accused me of holding you down

So you threw me into the Mariana Trench and never looked back.

I decided I didn't want to be without you,

So I attempted to become your sun.

But you wanted a star from a different galaxy and

Left me in the asteroid belt to forever be shattered.

Through all this pressure, lack of oxygen, and constant battering,

I'm drawn to you.

I guess you got the star you wanted,

Because I still feel the gravity.

Hold my hand,

Pull me closer,

Whisper my name,

Don't let me go.

Not true,

You aren't mine,

Letting me fall,

Just for show.

You can't be blamed,

It may be awkward,

I understand,

I know.

Love chooses who,

We do not,

We wish we could,

But we only follow.

I look to you with love,

You look back,

With vacant eyes,

Cold as snow.

You're my everything,

I'm your nothing,

I won't forget you,

You'll forget me tomorrow.

Slowly you fade from me,

You try to leave,

But you're stuck,

At least for now, so...

Please don't push me,

Out the window.

(I know you want to...)

Its the downfall of the nation

We create our own devastation.

Our thoughts, our hearts our minds

Have begun to quickly unwind.

War speech

Before outreach

Words of kindness from few bleed

As the haters become more with greed

The evil grows

As every man knows but

What will be the legacy

Of mans destiny

Will it be renewed sustination?

Or will it be our own

Devastation?

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One month.

One month since you went away.

They're talking about death and drowning;

About how they're friends.

I wish I could drown today.

I'm tyring to slosh on

Through the tears you left me in.

I'm just sinking and sinking,

But neighter heaven nor hell's lights are blinking.

It's not my time to break; I can only bend.

Empty forevers

Crash down like a tsunami wave.

I'm trying so hard to find solid ground,

But the sands and tides toss me around;

Not one part of me do they save.

In this one month,

I hope Heaven gave you a really fine crown.

It feels so damn empty without you;

Life gives me nothing to do

But live while trying to drown.

I am a train, though I do not stop.

I am a log, though I do not burn.

No passengers, no ashes left behind.

Picture an ocean with billions of waves

all moving in the same direction.

Picture a drop in that ocean that

for reasons unknown

runs the other way.

They say that life is to be cherished, a gift

like sunlight against the clouds.

But if the sun never set,

we would only wish for night.

I am the fish waiting to be drowned.

The beast grown tired of howling

A life is but a passing blink,

gone soon after waking

Mine holds tight to the lashes,

pushing tears from eyes that will

never close.

There is no happily ever

without the after that comes first.

The light within me falters,

as I look around and see

that the world we had such hope in

comes crumbling at the seems.

A mother rests in tears

at the thought of her young doll

leaving to the place she's never been,

they call her home.

A father, lying all in white,

as his children sit so near.

Praying to a God

that he may make it out of here.

Yet we sit here waiting

for the change to come at night.

But the days,

they run so long all we have left is to hope

that one day we'll all be blinded

to the life we sadly know.

Starting my journey alone wanting something to fill the void

I turn to watching other in love

But the love is fake; only to please the other

Not caring for the others life

If one was to die the other wouldn’t care I wanted the love caring or not but the fear grew

The blacker the blood became sprinting through my veins

The disappointment would be seen on its face

Tears would flow between me and them

They would mix together and form a puddle

Which I will drown myself in after this is over

Maybe in another place where my eternity lies it will be better

But I doubt it because where I’m heading is to a castle of black surrounded by a plash of blood