Instead of creating a life of longevity,

Maybe life would be better spent

In quality.

After all, a life well spent is not

Remebered with regret.

The moments cherrished

are moments shared.

Knowing well that even though

Love comes and goes,

Love shared coninuously flows.

To have lived a life thats full of

family and friends we love,

Thats what makes life worth having

quality connections with love.

A longer life without any one of these,

in the later years makes it hard to live with ease.

Especially when all you loved are now gone,

you feel "Whats the point? Everyone else has gone home!"

"Why did they leave me here alone, I'm lost and I wan't to go home."

So life is not about the money,

its how you gonna live your best life, Honey.

My mind takes me back...

Back to a warm but not too hot day, with gentle breezes blowing the switchgrasses just enough to make a hushed "shwish" as they blew over.

Redwing blackbirds singing sweetly as they sway with the grasses.

Im laying in the bed of my beat up old farm truck while spending time out in the pasture with my favorite people in the entire universe, my best friends, my confidants, my compadres. My horses.

As I'm layin here, i can hear them near snorting, stomping the flies, and swishing tails. I already spent the better part of the morning brushing and combing out loose hair, deshedding and scratching all the hard to reach spots. Lookin up at the sky, fluffy puffy white cumulus clouds are everywhere. A pair of turkey buzzards are circling in the distance probably a roadkill.

The grass smells sweet on the breeze and if I had to chose a day to die, this would be it because this would be my heaven.

Small things for others, kindness without being recognized.

Good deeds without noteriety.

Quiet graciousness shown to others is the divine way of sharing happiness.

Selflessness is a divine virtue, and brings you closer to God.

Service to others is the rent we pay for our time on earth. Make it worth while.

In return, the unexpected joy recieved is even more than what was given.

Give without expectation and you'll never be disapointed.

Always look at the sunny side of life and you'll always see rainbows!

Deona Boyle

aka VYXYN FOX

Its not the monster under my bed.

Its not the squeaky mouse eating

my bread.

Its not the wind whistling

'round my door,

or the way the wood creeks in my floor.

I just wish i could forget,

all the sweet times you made

me regret.

The valuble heirlooms you stole

for drugs.

I let you stay, yet, you were thugs.

Its not the pale moon through

my widow pane.

Its not the coyote howling in pain.

Its the loss of ones sweet little boy,

the memories that haunt

and keep me up at night.

They chose others over me,

I let them.

I made sacrifices for them.

They forgot who I am,

They are fine never seeing me or coming to my home.

They are ok with always putting themselves first.

I let them.

I always put them first.

They followed the crowd and

I let them.

They judged, misunderstood, and now live without me and

I let them.

I chased them when they were small, I guided them in early years,

but as adults they made thier choices. They know who and where I am. When it comes down to it,

they dont deserve me.

So yes,

I will just let them.

I guess loathing humanity is in my nature. It just comes with the territory.

Look I'm just biding my time in this prison called "life" untill the celestials deem me fit to go home.

This world is no life, this is Hell! This isnt living its just an existence to experience to understand humillity and benevolence. I never wanted or asked for this! Im sure this lesson has been lost on me for my heart has hardened on this whole experiment. No one is worth it. I learned to loath humans very early here when I was tortured as a child. Then I was told I had to forgive. Really?

Then it kept happening. By different but yet the same kind of humans. Again, I was told to forgive. Yet where was my justice?

Where is the justice for ones like me who are biding our time, just existing until we can leave this existence?

This world is a prison and I am an inmate.

Oh its the little things I plan to change.

For better or worse, better I hope.

I truly do want to get more excorcise, 5000 steps a day is the goal they say.

Ive managed to loose 120 lbs since 2023, I still but my goal isnt there yet so I'm working towards that.

I love paranormal stuff and investigation, but not this phony stuff going around.

Also I enjoy thriller movies, but hate gore. I really enjoyed the Pennydreadful sieries and the American Horror Storries so I intend to find more exciting stories.

Its just those little things you gotta enjoy, like you know,

Death.

It hurts.

Heartbreak.

Heartache.

Soul ache.

Endless torture.

Mindless debaucher.

Senseless agony.

Hurtfull masogany.

To whom do we owe this

illustrious end?

Well, it is the ever omnipresence

of the almighty compassionate one...

LOVE.

Yet, love never tells anyone how she comes at a

COST...

YOUR SOUL

YOUR HEART

YOURCONSCIENCE..

I live in the southern United States.

I grew up thinking that as an american, I had the constitutional right, to express my opinions as long as I am not intentionaly trying to hurt anothers feelings.

However, I am finding this not to be true. The truth is that you only can have free speech as long as you agree with the social media and thier agenda. If what I have to say goes against what they decide is correct and morally right, I get told Im uneducated, that Im stupid, and name calling!

So where is my freedom of speech? Why is everything racist or hatespeech if you disagree with someone on like say abortion?

Even if you give your own account just to prove you also have been there, you get called a liar.

Just this last week I have been told how nasty I am simply for disagreeing and presenting an aposing opinion.

I was told I have no compassion for other people, when that couldn't be further from the truth!

I just have a real hard time understanding why, if we disagree, is it a big deal?

Im not trying to indoctrinate anyone by expressing my thought on a post. (It was an AITAH post on Reddit)

I wasn't snotty, but just factual, but I sure caught heck.

Anyway, just be prepared that you really arent free to express yourself if you disagree with anyone because that instantly makes you whatever nasty hateful thing they want to call you.

I want to move to some land all my own. I'd have my dogs of course. Mostlty woods, a large meadow and springfed pond.

I would have a small cabin in the edge of the tree line, built like a dug out for hot sumers and then a part up in the trees to get away from predators if need to.

I would have a small chicken coop, a few goats, a couple cows, and at least one mule for working. I would have a well with a windmill and another windmill for electricity plus a solar station for extra.

I would have a small garden, grow enough for me and the animals and grow hay for the winter.

Everything is self sustainable.

This is my paradise.

What I would give to get away from society and live off grid.