The sunset getting blocked by clouds

I gripped the porcelain sink one last time I whispered, and looked into the mirror, into myself, and suddenly here I am, in front of my deepest fear, I could see the sparks trying to escape the fake darkness that I put there, to protect what's inside, but I sensed another darkness, the real one, coming from inside, so I went to inspect, just as I entered the brightly yellow turned to darkness as someone left, why did she leave? what did I do? but as I though this more darkness came, so I focused on moving forward , but I could see a shadow damaging and putting more darkness, why don't you just leave? I asked but of course I didn't get an answer, shadows don't talk, it was getting cold in this part so I moved on, and I found her, the original cause of the darkness, why do you do this to me? I asked, and surprisingly I actually got an answer, it's because I love you she said, I know that everything happening here is my fault, I showed this people that the darkness sorrounding was fake, I trusted them, I showed them my soul, and at the end my best friend left, my almost boyfriend left but I can't stop thinking about him, and my own mother is killing me slowly, everything is my fault, maybe if the darkness is real it wouldn't be so bad, at least I will definitely be safe.