Chained

My heart is shattering

But you can't tell

It's disguised behind my smile

So cheery and bright

An instant reaction

It sometimes fools myself

Yet deep inside

Something is missing

I'd love to tell you

I really do try

I throw in hints, actions

Anything that might make you catch on

Yet I hesitate

How can I tell you

When I don't even know what's wrong

Maybe you think this is part of my quirks

I think so too

I look around at others

And I often think

I want to be like them

I am jealous

I am anxious

I am greedy

I am prideful

I dance with the devil

The seven deadly sins cheer me on

Around and around we go

Constantly repeating the same circles

Over

Over

Over again

My heart is chained to my brain

Captive to the dark crevices within

Shrouded every waking moment with fear

Stripped of natural feelings

Longing to find the key

Longing to be free

So how can I tell you

When the solution lies within me?