I lost
Im on the floor
In a heap
Like yesterday’s dirty laundry
Draped in lace
China doll painted face
Your mumbling to yourself
Resentment is an understatement
My hatred for you grows
A weed that cannot be killed
Despite how much weed killer you use
I smirk at the thought
It’s the happiest thought I’ll have all day
I’m drenched in sadness
It’s so stifling in here
I can barely breathe
I gasp for air
Pulling my self up
From the ravine my tub has become
40 days and 40 nights
39 to go
I flop onto the tile
Bruised like a peach already
I hardly notice the new one form
Avoiding my own glance
Rounding the corner
I hold my breath
This room feels like a dungeon
Somewhere inside of me
Grows hotter
Erupting like a volcano
Lava bursts from my tear ducts
Burning my face
No one should be envious of me
Pretty face until it turns ugly
Then what?
Your excuse
Was you don’t understand
Wrapping your brain
Around something other then yourself
Is almost impossible for you
I’ll lunge
A tiger staring down on her prey
Finally catching the elusive deer
Blinking back to reality
Your blank stare is worthless
An apology would of sufficed
Instead I’m biting my tongue
Blood fills my mouth
Our eyes locked
Nothing will make me lose this one
Ice cold shivers travel down my spine
Why did I have to try outsmart you
Boast my intelligence
Prove to someone like you
That I’m worthy
I’m the one you want
The sweetest candy in the whole jar
Pick me pick me
Now I beg for it to stop
Over and over again
Screaming at you
Your so deaf to my cries
I’d rather die then continue to beg for my life
In the chair I stare
The most luxurious life
Fake smiles next to fake identities
I’m the best
I earned this
No one is better then I
I won the greatest reward
They picked me
Instead of elation
I’m the saddest I’ve ever been
Orange is my new favorite color
Walking back to my new place
Nothing could be worse
Then the cell inside my head
I won