Darkness doesn’t mean sleep.

"at night lying awake

trying to ignore the ache

in my body and my mind

abused by the less than kind

I let thoughts wonder around

without making a sound

until they become dreams

of pleasant things

to drown the screams"

It's never just one thing. Sleep doesn't always come easy for the screams are too loud and long to be masked by even dreams. Thoughts pop in and out of my head like a tangible line to string theory, like a thunderstorm, it's a dark-thought downpour.

"Mind the artistic execution of purposeful manipulation; selling half-truths like fact in every way."

"People come and people go; content to ignore what they know."

"It isn’t a story of rainbows and sunshine, it’s the grit born through the dawn of mankind. In all the histories written by man, there’s never a question that we’ve fought for land– money and procreation, destroying nature for recreation. Killing people for the way they think, again and again, as some never blink. For all the good there’s a mountain of bad, hidden by clouds formed from the tears of the sad. So much blood and toxic waste, increasing frequency with such haste-- all just to get a taste of the “finer” things."

"How strong is the temptation of damnation within the corrupted mind of the individuals who find a touch of pleasure in the prospect of delivering pain?"

"Will the world drive me to my end before I know what it feels like to be loved?"

I try to sleep but my mind goes down the rabbit hole of all thing that make me want to cry, leading me to want to die– so I let my dark mind rage to clear the somber fog.

" Companies wanting employees with College Degrees like drones in their malevolently manipulated regime – profiteering greed steering the need to replace another cog in the wheel of such a machine."

"Why do killers kill? How can they kill without remorse? … because we’ve told them not to care what other people think. To do their own thing and be their own person… we told them people don’t matter."

"My heart aches for the half-tree, trimmed back for the path of a power-line."

"Raindrops don’t fill the wishing-well, only tears."

"So many of us don’t want be alone, so much so, that we will hook others into misery and suffering at our side, pretending that we care (for them,) when we just want them there, (for us.)" Like my Grandmother...

"We, as humans, are the products of the choices of those who came before us; and we, as humans, shape the future of humanity through the choices we then make for ourselves, which will always impact those around us, whether we realize it or not."

"To bring peace, you must first understand violence, as to learn to see the signs and thus conclude the best way to diffuse or redirect the intent before the execution. -- Like defusing a bomb… cut the wrong wire, it explodes and takes you with it. "

Sometimes I just have to remind myself, "Being anxious about your future is a debilitating excuse for not enjoying your present." That loosing sleep over these things isn't helping anyone, especially me.

|| another-proser ||