Untitled.

I can't pretend

that I don't care

to understand.

I need the truth

even if it makes

my heart sink

in my ocean

of despair.

I haven't learned

how to tread my emotions.

Life

is a popularity contest

and I'm not everyone's

weak ass cup of tea.

I'm not special;

I know there are others

like me.

Show yourselves

The ones who

may not interview well.

Most of the people

you meet

never make it past

being called

an acquaintance.

You aren't

particularly charming

and you're not a

a ray of cancer causing

sunshine

People like us

who work hard

and don't have a

clown smile

painted on our faces

end up filing bullshit

or answering phones.

We are smart.

We are loving.

We

are

capable.

We don't need

to have people need us.

We are strong.

Maybe,

too fuckin strong.

Rejection is too

prevalent in ours lives.

I was just told

I give out

benefit of the doubt

like I am Oprah.

You get the benefit of the doubt!

You get the benefit of the doubt!

Everyone gets the benefit of the doubt!

Check under your chairs....

unlimited benefit of the doubt!

I set myself up.

I expect too much

out of the world.

I know

It doesn't owe me shit.

But damn,

let me get something

out of this.

"Throw dirt on me and get a wildflower"--Lil Wayne