Moments

I can never get close as I used to be..See things clear as I used to see..I swear every day I try to be..The person I was before...You left me.... Love.... 

You see love and I have unfinished busyness.. Contracts to sign but we don't have a witness.. I want love to be mine but I'm starting to find that I don't have the time to follow this line all the way to the end there's too many twists too many turns i cant find my way there's too many bends... Love... 

You are complicated.... So much so that what I do find I question and the answers are never spoken because that's how love is.... Love is broken... Broken in moments. A moment here a moment there but in between those moments leaves a moment bare... But that moment doesn't seem like a moment at all, no its more like an ocean into which I fall.. Fighting to stay up when my emotions pull me down from the weight of a moment passed that is nowhere to be found. So I swim my heart out for as long as it lasts looking for something to grab, anything to grasp anything to hold on to I need a lifeline fast so I don't drown waiting for the next moment to pass. Love...

Love is patient. So much more so than I could ever be which makes it rather easy to see the problem with the clarity of this situation that's so dear to me, the pursuit of love and surviving the in between. But love is boundless and endless and seems to be carefree because although it never ends, it dose tend to leave me. I've already died once but I'd risk it again if love would stop leaving

 and stick it out til the end. I've grown tired and restless from a life of uncertainty waiting to find love while searching endlessly across the span of time and only seeing love briefly in moments that never stay but it's those moments that take my breath away. Love... 

A four letter word with a seven letter meaning because love is forever... Forever waiting... But enough is enough I told love I'm done. I'm not waiting no more my last search has been sprung. No longer will I look for you, I've grown used to being lonely 

I've had enough of what I'm going through but do you know what's funny? Even though I'm done with love, love doesn't leave me be. Because when I stop chasing it... Love tends to find me.....

       -Shane Thompson