Without Me

“The person you are trying to contact is currently unavailable, please try again later or leave a message.”

“Hey... I just wanted to ask how you’ve been. Since the break up.

I wanted to ask since... it’s been hard for me.

And I wanted to know how you are... without me...

I’ve been walking on hot coals with every waking moment.

I don’t mean to guilt you into anything but I just...

Didn’t want you to be feeling the same.

Sorry for wasting your time...

Call me back...

Goodbye.”

I hung up the phone, clearing my throat in an attempt to clear the lump that had grown there.

I slid down the wall, trying to contain my tears.

The phone dangled from my fingers, my arms lain across my kness that were pulled to my chest.

My voice kept breaking while I was talking, mostly because I was almost eager to hear his reply.

Because I wondered how he had been without me.