Gone

I woke up

unfortunately I woke up

I never felt like I could stay asleep

not with you

this asinine convergence

of fear and freedom

of hope and 'fuck this!'

one never without the other

I tried really

the smoke wasn't the issue

the fire wasn't to blame

but rather the hands

the hands that held the corpses

the rubble beneath the waves of black

I held them

but they were already

gone

#poetry #prose #loss #givingup