Dear other me,

Hello there other half of me. It's been a few days since I last wrote to you and now I feel like I need to do it again. I don't want to be emotional for one more time but that's how I let my feelings out and I can do nothing about it but write you why I feel sad and why do I have to always be stupid and make bad decisions.

So last time I told you how interested I was for this guy and how much I wanted him and how I was gonna get my answers on something he said. Well I did it, I got my answers and now me and him are a thing and I am so happy about it but at the same time I'm scared to death! You see we only had our 1st date a day before the bad news about staying home come. So we had and amazing first & last date, he was such a beuty and I liked it a lot but...there's always a but with me. Well, we've been talking through camera all these days and I always realize how I miss him, his hugs, his kiss, everything and I end up crying at nights after we close. I can't sleep anymore, my mind is going crazy and I always catching me thinking about the worst things ever! What if he decides that I'm no longer what he needs?, may he is having another one he's talking to?, is this going to work till we finally be able to go out?

Questions and fears I have won't leave just like that! He is the first ever person who cared about me. I mean he tries so hard to help me change a few things on me when my own friends never did that and oh my angels when he says how much I mean to him, I swear if there was a portal through phone camera I would go and I would hug him till I feel alright. Why I can't let myself be happy for once in my life? Because I never had that! My life never was a happy one and when it finally became?! Oh I feel like there's a catch on this one and if everything is just a dream then don't wake me up till all of this is over.

I love him so damn much and everyday I thank the angels for giving a person like him. I just wish he knew how much I care about him and how I want him to be happy!

That's all I had to say other soul of mine. I'll see again when I'll feel like I have to talk to you!