Perspective

I used to reason

that I’d be skinny

on some long lost day

slender, fit – hurray!

used to ruminate

on days that would come

when life would improve

so long I did hope…

but now, years older

still a stout boulder

heavy and rotund

relentlessly judged

if only by me

I question my worth

but then I re-look –

date-stamped old photos

remembering days

when I thought I was

self-esteem escaped

and now it’s too late

for so much has changed

and looks aren’t the game

© J.A. Smith 2020

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