Lullaby

I never wanted to be a mom

But then I held you in my arms.

All my worries became very real,

But you couldnt know how I feel.

I buried them down and held on

Until I woke up and you were gone.

Nurses were gentle to break the news

But it didn’t stop the pain and blues.

I’d escaped my land to give you a home

And now I’m here, broke, and all alone.

For months I wandered in a haze

Sloely navigating grief stage by stage.

Once I hit acceptance, I met Ivan

Who encouraged me to keep on fighting.

We wed and are now expecting a girl

Though I still wish you were in thid world.

They helped me see you had set me free

So I have mourned and you can rest in peace.