I never wanted to be a mom
But then I held you in my arms.
All my worries became very real,
But you couldnt know how I feel.
I buried them down and held on
Until I woke up and you were gone.
Nurses were gentle to break the news
But it didn’t stop the pain and blues.
I’d escaped my land to give you a home
And now I’m here, broke, and all alone.
For months I wandered in a haze
Sloely navigating grief stage by stage.
Once I hit acceptance, I met Ivan
Who encouraged me to keep on fighting.
We wed and are now expecting a girl
Though I still wish you were in thid world.
They helped me see you had set me free
So I have mourned and you can rest in peace.