Noonecares

It’s 12:23 am

and I’m spinning

while forgetting how to sleep

as my mind becomes still

as I swim in it’s torrents

I can’t seem to see

how to breath anymore

as I hold my breath

and count down until it’s 12:25

im choking

on the water now

im tossing in the waves

flailing in my bed as I

drown drown drown

its 12:28 and I’m throwing up

the food from yesterday

so seasick

so hurt

so tired

yet I’m

awake

im lonely

no tears

because my emotions run dry

yet I’m submerged in an ocean full of them.

can you point me towards land?

can you

will you

(no one will)

im alone in this sea

im Alone

im alone

my Mother holds me in the water

as well as my father.

some boy I chose to like

left me drowning.

my Only friend did the same...

noonecares

so I’ll just

drown in this isolated desert at 12:35am.