You travelled the constellations

searching for the right one

(while I was sitting there in the Milky Way, waiting for you).

And you found your shooting star alright,

so you fell with him

chasing a dying star

(while I was sitting here, burning bright with love--love for you).

And now you're gone

your stardust remains

scattered upon a dying dream

and the skies

dimmer

without you here

(but I'm here, alone, still waiting for you to come home).

I know I make you laugh

i know I make you feel

i Know I make your heart beat fast

i know I make things real

but I know you still love her

i know I'm not the one

i know that im just a. distraction

and I know how much That hurts

i just wish you'd love me for me

and not the fact that I'm pretty

or a relief

i just wish I was Something more to you

someting

more

than

something

you sip pansies with tarnished lips

just to feel beautiful once more

but you don’t need more beauty

for in you

i see

a sea of stars

lost in a dark abyss

(i wish you could see the beauty in your night)

You tried and then left me dry so I died.

dehydrated from the lack of love

but then you cried

and you tried again

to fill my heart

with times that still felt

right...

but I was lying in cold bed sheets rhyming incoherent words, flying to the motherland of broken hearted dreams.

and then we fell like stars that once burned brightly in the cosmos of destiny,

(but I still can’t understand why we are falling when I feel so much tender sparks of renewal?)

Yet we fall. Fall apart. Fall to different parts of the world because our time is over.

(I just wished it lasted longer...that my hope held like the luster of that star).

It’s 12:23 am

and I’m spinning

while forgetting how to sleep

as my mind becomes still

as I swim in it’s torrents

I can’t seem to see

how to breath anymore

as I hold my breath

and count down until it’s 12:25

im choking

on the water now

im tossing in the waves

flailing in my bed as I

drown drown drown

its 12:28 and I’m throwing up

the food from yesterday

so seasick

so hurt

so tired

yet I’m

awake

im lonely

no tears

because my emotions run dry

yet I’m submerged in an ocean full of them.

can you point me towards land?

can you

can you

will you

(no one will)

im alone in this sea

im Alone

im alone

im alone

my Mother holds me in the water

as well as my father.

some boy I chose to like

left me drowning.

my Only friend did the same...

noonecares

so I’ll just

drown in this isolated desert at 12:35am.

Midnight is not a time

it is a feeling

that sends oceans through my mind

and shocks my soul to

l i f e.