Swan’t

She and him. Her and her. Him and him. I don't see a human or a genital. None of that matters when the heart and mind want something, someone to sleep next to. Someone to cradle and cry with. The universe at least gave me a heart and feelings that are plenty enough for the whole town. I couldn't love the whole world, not alone anyways. I choose to keep my feet just a little higher of the ground than the rest. Right when it seems like a hand is about to reach mine I make sure to check my feet and finally even they cuddle the earth. I look into their eyes, they look back into mine. I shutter in fear but return back with glee. I can feel that warm summer feeling, love. Sometimes the chilly wind accompanies me back into the restaurant and there they are, standing tall and it feels like they call for me but hide it all behind a smile. How I wish to know the truth. Perhaps hearing "No." would set my mind at ease. It's so hard when all you can do is look and not touch. This is the life I chose for myslef and until I'm ready I won't play around with anyone. I've lived in this world not long enough but my mind has. I've learned better than to fall into momentary bliss and stardust-love. However, it does get cold but even so, all you have to do is wrap a warm blanket around you and take a hot bath to feel yourself and the world warming you back up. It's all about how you choose to keep the fire alive. Whether in the mind, the heart, both or even beyond. I married life before myself, but even so the human heart yearns for something more complex. My input is, that love, life, God, The Universe, Time, The Mind, all find a way and when that happens you're sure to know. We can't just be one thing, we can't rely on one thing to jump in. It's a collection of things that decide when that moment is time. No matter when that happens, life has already taken you as it's own. These decisions must be made with the input of the lusting swan, the adventurous wolf, and the prancing deer knocking on all kinds of doors. Placing yourself in a box only welcomes in darkness from the corners with no way out but the small area you have created for yourself. If you don't charish all of what you have to spend on this Earth than take a step back and look at it from the darkness, from every way, there is no one true answer to every specific problem but by broadening your views you will be able to shape your own answer and accomadte it into your life. That is what a life close and near to death, to that of pity, to finally acceptance has taught me. I would not be here if it were not for all of humanity. Truly, deep down I urge all people to open your boxes, and walk out into the whole world. Don't flatter yourself and think "what would they think" or whoever. Darling, the whole world ain't watching you, and if you capture some eyes then ask yourself why, analyze their faces, and think how you would react to seeing yourself, process this with calm and when you hit the wall of shame ask yourself why and understand that this is not the end. Many peope die with regrets and that alone is a testament to why you shouldn't leave life with regrets either. These things accompany all of us to the very edge unless if we are taught to live with all of who we are. Only then can we leave this Earth, our only home, with a heart and mind at peace with our decisions and those who we have met and befriended. Thank you readers, walk with a joy only you can understand. Goodnight.