She and him. Her and her. Him and him. I don't see a human or a genital. None of that matters when the heart and mind want something, someone to sleep next to. Someone to cradle and cry with. The universe at least gave me a heart and feelings that are plenty enough for the whole town. I couldn't love the whole world, not alone anyways. I choose to keep my feet just a little higher of the ground than the rest. Right when it seems like a hand is about to reach mine I make sure to check my feet and finally even they cuddle the earth. I look into their eyes, they look back into mine. I shutter in fear but return back with glee. I can feel that warm summer feeling, love. Sometimes the chilly wind accompanies me back into the restaurant and there they are, standing tall and it feels like they call for me but hide it all behind a smile. How I wish to know the truth. Perhaps hearing "No." would set my mind at ease. It's so hard when all you can do is look and not touch. This is the life I chose for myslef and until I'm ready I won't play around with anyone. I've lived in this world not long enough but my mind has. I've learned better than to fall into momentary bliss and stardust-love. However, it does get cold but even so, all you have to do is wrap a warm blanket around you and take a hot bath to feel yourself and the world warming you back up. It's all about how you choose to keep the fire alive. Whether in the mind, the heart, both or even beyond. I married life before myself, but even so the human heart yearns for something more complex. My input is, that love, life, God, The Universe, Time, The Mind, all find a way and when that happens you're sure to know. We can't just be one thing, we can't rely on one thing to jump in. It's a collection of things that decide when that moment is time. No matter when that happens, life has already taken you as it's own. These decisions must be made with the input of the lusting swan, the adventurous wolf, and the prancing deer knocking on all kinds of doors. Placing yourself in a box only welcomes in darkness from the corners with no way out but the small area you have created for yourself. If you don't charish all of what you have to spend on this Earth than take a step back and look at it from the darkness, from every way, there is no one true answer to every specific problem but by broadening your views you will be able to shape your own answer and accomadte it into your life. That is what a life close and near to death, to that of pity, to finally acceptance has taught me. I would not be here if it were not for all of humanity. Truly, deep down I urge all people to open your boxes, and walk out into the whole world. Don't flatter yourself and think "what would they think" or whoever. Darling, the whole world ain't watching you, and if you capture some eyes then ask yourself why, analyze their faces, and think how you would react to seeing yourself, process this with calm and when you hit the wall of shame ask yourself why and understand that this is not the end. Many peope die with regrets and that alone is a testament to why you shouldn't leave life with regrets either. These things accompany all of us to the very edge unless if we are taught to live with all of who we are. Only then can we leave this Earth, our only home, with a heart and mind at peace with our decisions and those who we have met and befriended. Thank you readers, walk with a joy only you can understand. Goodnight.

I feel... good about it. Just nervous because I suck at getting gifts for people and they always get me something so, eiiik!! Well, anyways there's always next year... sigh. I do like walking down the sidewalk especially now that it's time for lights and seeing how extravagant some people decorate their houses others not so much. As for me, its pretty bleak but who cares, I'm happy and that's all my Christmas is about. Lol, merry early Christmas to you!

You’re right, this world is a miserable place. What would you do then? Give up? Sometimes when I lose hope for humanity I look to the things in life that are still growing. Especially the young, I myself am only 16 but in time that will also no longer matter. Give the things in life that bring you joy value. Enjoy the things you want to, and definitely stay out of trouble. Don’t you dare for a second give up on yourself, give up on others and bad habits. It’s okay to let go but do not let go of yourself. You are but an extension of the power that created the universe. You are you, I am me we are not the same. You have to enjoy your life for you and you have to be the most authentic version of yourself, living a life the world tells you is not a valid excuse. Understand this, the world will move on with or without you, that is a fact. But ask yourself what would it look like if you do something for it. Small things make up the greatest of things in life. Listen here, now that you are old enough, don’t think of what might have been, think of what you can do. Don’t lose yourself to politics either, just listen and watch humanity. Watch from the eyes of your heart. Let your heart guide you, we are both living in an era of revolution. The past and now are clashing, do not strip away science and fact from your life, these are necessary and they have forged your world. Judge the world not with hate but with an ambitious fire to see it change and so that in the future when you look to another young person, you will know that they can be proud of their predecessors. You, your mind, spirit, and heart are the things I'm most proud of. I know I'm just another person but since I'm an old soul I want to help my fellow people too. :)

Fingernails with dirt under

My nail polish cracked

Black chips on your birthday face

Funny how hard you tumble

Rolling down the hill

Playing with pigs

Sweet bloody mud mask

Guess you do have horse teeth

Cute

I like thinking that we were friends. Even though I got slapped by my Dad because I liked you. Sometimes things just don't work out for me. Sometimes mom's shadow cuts my heels. Taking steps and pills hurt. They really do. I don't wanna be friends with you anymore. Mom and dad don't like you. You're a monster! It's all your fault because or else my arms wouldn't hurt and my heels wouldn't bleed. I really don't like you.

Silencing glare from the moon

Staring deep into my cosmic mind

Shattering the crystal net

between me and the endless sea of darkness

Illuminated by bright lights

Metal skyships flying overhead

One can feel the night

bend with the astral sky

Bringing to earth

A light only the heavens can reach

With these bare hands

I take a chunk

for the next time I visit