I Saw Your Light Go Out

I saw your motivation shine bright

The light gleaming in your eyes when you talked

about your family

about the ex you were still in love with

Who still loved you

about getting a new job

a new home.

I saw your pain.

Your light crackling like a fire now

Your body shaking

hands swollen.

The strain in your voice,

The tears in your eyes when you weren't accepted

When all you ever wanted to be was loved.

I saw your light dimmer.

Nodding off in the middle of a sentence.

Sweat dripping from your face

Your body shivering

as you say

I want to stop

I don't need it

I'm not addicted

You screamed for someone,

anyone

to listen

And when that wasn't enough

You stuck the needle in your vein

and you drifted away.

I saw your light go out.

I found you, or an empty shell

where you used to be

The light in your eyes were gone.

The pain you had

no longer in you

But in me

And we all wonder what we could have done different

once it is too late.