Grief

Letting go of my grief is an impossible task

The heavy weight wraps wires around my heart

dragging my soul out of my chest every time I think of you.

Your laugh

How you illuminated every room you stepped into

Memories of driving down desolate streets in the dead of night

A temporary technique used to vanish reality

Only when dawn replaced midnight

Would we return

Now,

the grief and the guilt take turns toying with me

until I am nothing but a blank page stained by a speck of dark ink

Until the ink is absorbed into every atom of my being

I am consumed entirely

Forever wondering why it wasn't me

but you who had to leave.