Dad.

After a certain point I got used to you letting me down

I got used to that one empty seat in the school's auditorium

Waiting around for the "sorry kiddo, couldn't make it" text became a routine

Sure, it hurt when you stopped apologizing for your absence

But, I had gotten used to you letting me down

It wasn't even surprising that you didn't call on my birthday

I've gotten better at not expecting an invitation to your house for holidays

Accepted that you have no interest in who I am

In return, I block out Father's day and deleted your contact

Which is ridiculous, because it's one of the only ones I have memorized

I used to think you were just incapable of doing the things other dads did

Until I saw that you were just incapable of doing them with me