Like The Moon Loved The Sun
I don't think you understand
I love her more than anything
I love her in such a unique and special way
My love can never be copied or stolen
I love her like the Moon loves the Sun
Admiring from afar
Not able to kiss, Not able to touch
I love her like the shore loves the ocean
Waiting day and night for her return
But in the same way that the Sun will never return the Moon's affections
And the same way that the Ocean leaves and comes back and then leaves once more
She does not love me
She does not sit and write poems about me as I do for her right now
She does not admire from a far, hoping to catch a glance
She does not anticipate my return
And I realize only now
Only in writing this
I need to give her up
We are eaters.
We'll eat away at everything, until there is nothing left.
With no regard for feelings or boundaries.
We'll never be satisfied.
We'll just consume until we burst.
After a certain point I got used to you letting me down
I got used to that one empty seat in the school's auditorium
Waiting around for the "sorry kiddo, couldn't make it" text became a routine
Sure, it hurt when you stopped apologizing for your absence
But, I had gotten used to you letting me down
It wasn't even surprising that you didn't call on my birthday
I've gotten better at not expecting an invitation to your house for holidays
Accepted that you have no interest in who I am
In return, I block out Father's day and deleted your contact
Which is ridiculous, because it's one of the only ones I have memorized
I used to think you were just incapable of doing the things other dads did
Until I saw that you were just incapable of doing them with me