if only i could
if i could get you back
if i could somehow jog the memory,
reignite the flame
that was supposed to never die.
if i could re-strengthen the fire,
the one that is supposed to
eternally pull us closer still
until one again.
if i could make math redetermine
the values of
two halves, yet two souls
and somehow make them one.
if i could have you back,
i guess i would give anything for that,
because it hurts to see you so close
and yet feel so very far from your heart.
i feel misplaced,
i have screamed all i can,
spoken eloquent words,
replayed our favorite tunes,
laid it out for you in tears,
and nothing brings you anywhere near
to back to me as you were.
nothing stands a chance
against the white throned.
i always believed there was one love
meant to be for everyone,
there was one path to eternity.
but that was before
you showed me that
love has forks
and you could actually be undecided on
which one to travel,
before you told me that they may sometimes run parallel,
they will always part,
and i will always have the lower end.
because i just lost that spark,
and you just closed your eyes
on the brightest light born,
and opened them in another direction.
you found something else
to light your way,
another map to explore.
i just wish that i could bring you back.
if only i could.