i always knew there was a leash between us,

i just never was sure

who was wearing the collar.

#micropoetry

#poetry

#humor

#geekslutnerdgirl

inspired by Rafaellopezjr’s poem Light in the Dark

writhing against the pulse,

and you,

soaked in

my skin.

glimpses of light

becoming brighter

as sun adds to

the heat between us.

@Rafaelopezjr

#poetry

#lovemaking

of all the paths to wander,

i’m somehow stuck on track one.

i guess i didn’t design a future

where i could be a victor,

because with all the patterns swirling,

i pick out the familiar

then wonder why i’m broken.

it’s because all the other paths,

i forgot.

always on a mission to rescue,

try to ensure a way to golden

regardless of if it’s taken,

i am returned to the start.

got to do it all over,

my song is stuck in repeat,

my heart is stuck in

the dark.

there has got to be a way

to pull us both through together

there has got to be a way

to level up.

#geekslutnerdgirl

#thepathisaloop

#poetry

i rode your balls

sweating out the lust

with these hips

in swing

and gyrating

and bouncing.

you play it safe,

let me do my thing

until it’s time to

slide out from underneath

and in the pitch dark

your body weighed heavy.

that’s when things went south

and you gave me a foul smirk

i never said you could cum in me.

@Finder

Not sure if this is allowed to be an adult poem or not. If not remove it.

cradling -

allows no separation.

gotta hold you

to my breastplate

so our hearts can learn to beat the same.

we’re going to make the same mistakes-

i’ll hate who you become,

despise the reminder of self.

you should call me murder,

mother is for women who love their daughters.

you asked me once what dope took from me,

and the answer is

it took you.

you alone,

are poetry.

a lover of beauty, you say,

as i blush beneath the sheets

that held your scent long after you left.

today the song and dance

you made of my words

have turned to war chants

and judgement

bending grooves in the spaces

created between us.

the smoke chokes the love,

unwraps the arms from around me,

drops the safety net

for my jump

and ties you up in shackles.

it’s no longer me you can’t live without.

you asked me once what dope took from me

and truthfully,

it took so many damn things-

my life, my brain, my health,

my girls-

and it took,

it took you.

#geekslutnerdgirl

#poetry

#gsng

#loveless

#thesedrugs

if i could get you back

if i could somehow jog the memory,

reignite the flame

that was supposed to never die.

if i could re-strengthen the fire,

the one that is supposed to

eternally pull us closer still

until one again.

if i could make math redetermine

the values of

two halves, yet two souls

and somehow make them one.

if i could have you back,

i guess i would give anything for that,

because it hurts to see you so close

and yet feel so very far from your heart.

i feel misplaced,

traded in,

pushed back,

forgotten.

i have screamed all i can,

spoken eloquent words,

replayed our favorite tunes,

laid it out for you in tears,

and nothing brings you anywhere near

to back to me as you were.

nothing stands a chance

against the white throned.

i always believed there was one love

meant to be for everyone,

there was one path to eternity.

but that was before

you showed me that

love has forks

and you could actually be undecided on

which one to travel,

before you told me that they may sometimes run parallel,

they will always part,

and i will always have the lower end.

because i just lost that spark,

and you just closed your eyes

on the brightest light born,

and opened them in another direction.

you found something else

to light your way,

another map to explore.

i just wish that i could bring you back.

if only i could.

#poetry

#love

#missingyou

you don’t think i’ve got enough tribulations?

too much negative energy

hanging onto my skin.

you don’t think i have enough empty,

enough broken (promises)

under my skin?

you don’t think the hurt is deep enough?

thought i needed to try to survive a tidal

wave,

while dodging bullets

and trying to talk to angels

because it’s all i have left.

do you think i have enough lonely?

no?

you’re going to take away you too?

pull yourself through my pores,

until you are standing on your own,

then knock my feet out from under me.

knees buckling and i am too weak

for swimming in these rapids.

i am the only one.

i have no one.

nothing can possibly understand me.

nobody can feel this loneliness.

but i thought you cared enough

to make the ride thru this hell with me.

instead i’m burning in your deception,

i am smoke in mirrors

as your lies try to fold me up

so i won’t see

all the ways you have

moved away from me.

because i don’t have enough,

let’s multiply this pain,

divide the happiness left,

subtract the light

and add more emptiness

to this shell of a girl.

this is how you left me here.

this is how i am.

defeated.

defeated.

but i guess,

if i think about it-

even in the brightest dreams i have

still, we did part.

we have subtle lenses

attached to complex visions.

they call it creativity.

i call me falling off

the deep-end,

not drowning

or swimming in,

but falling.

guess its a perception thing.

i think at least if i were only drowning,

i'd only have five more minutes of

living like this.

but falling,

i am still breathing

and i can be falling forever.

at least thats how it seems.

my mind made up is

always different than

the norm or

the rest of the breathing world.

and i don't care if they do.

leave it to them.

i can't worry about

pleasing everybody.

i have too many damn ledges

to avoid catching,

to avoid becoming

just another anybody

like the rest of you sheep in society.

my eyes will stay

wide awake.

fuck you for loving me

and wanting me

and trying to

pull/push

tempt/sway

bribe/beg

me back to safety.

i don't want to be

tucked away

in someone elses

dreams.

that is my only nightmare.

sullen stomp.

you parade like

falling locks of

sweetest bird flight,

lost

in the ruffled feathers

of bedtime pillow.

holding your head above water,

up and into

poisonous air molecules,

you slip past substance

into addiction

and alongside murder.

my black eyes swallow

the sound of my

pain, stuck in silence.

my lips, red, with soreness

of stretching and

tearing and

withholding the tears

along with the crying.

my life trying to untangle

itself from the sheets..

everything is a nightmare