Last Colour of Rainbow

1.

He was sitting alone in his room when someone knocked at the door. He was surprised and didn’t believe that someone really knocked at his door. But when he heard the same sound again, he realized that someone was indeed knocking. He got up and opened the door. Opening the door he saw someone he never expected to see at his doorstep.

The girl at his doorstep had confusion in her eyes. Probably she was thinking whether it was a wrong decision to show up here. She also had fear in her eyes, maybe she was afraid that the he would tell her to go away.

"You? Here? How did you find me?"

“Don't think it was easy. You weren’t answering my calls, but I needed to talk to you.

“Come in.”

He took her to a balcony. And all of a sudden, he asked her

“What do you think about me? You think I am a happy person, don't you? I don’t have struggles, is that what you think? "

“Much like that. Everyone has struggles in life. You are no different. Apart

from that, I think you are a happy person."

“That is what you are supposed to think. Because I didn’t let you see my true self. I didn't let you see my weakness. I disguised myself.

I think it’s time to tell you everything. What's the point of hiding it anymore? Besides, I need to tell these to someone."

“You can tell me.”

He started his story. His voice was like hearing from a faraway place.

"I was in class ten when I met an accident. It was a serious accident and I was bedridden for nearly one year. After one year I was healed physically but not mentally. It took a toll on my mental health. I couldn’t take one step outside because of the trauma caused by that accident. I couldn’t sleep at night. As I couldn’t go to school for one year, I was lag behind. My old classmates looked at me in a strange way. I became a loner. You will never understand that pain of loneliness. Loneliness leaded to depression. I had to go to doctor because of that. I even tried to kill myself. I couldn’t break out of that panic and depression. Now I can't get along with people. I have lost the interest to continue on with my life. Then I met you. Your affection towards me helped me get along with you. But I had to change myself to be with you. I was tired of this. That is why I wanted you to leave. I was afraid that you won't be able to be with the real me. "

She remained quiet for a long while listening to his story. Tears streamed down her face. He couldn’t see that in darkness.

She said, "Let me tell you one thing."

“Say it.”

She took his hand and told, "I am never going to leave you. No matter what you are. You don’t need to change yourself."

“Are you sure that you can do that? After all these happened?”

“Please give me one more chance. I may not be able to fix your problems, but

I will at least let you feel that someone is by your side. I will look after you even if I have to suffer pain for you.”

“Thanks. I don’t know whether you will be able to be my side until the end. But believe me, except for my family, you are the only one who extended her hand to me. I hurt you a lot but you still want to be with me. That means a lot to me.”

2.

She couldn’t keep her words. She died in a road accident after a year.

Their last conversation went like this.

“I'm sorry, I couldn't keep my word. I have to leave now.”

“It's not your fault. You did your best.”

“I wonder who is going to take care of you after I'm gone.”

He kept quite. She spoke again,

"You have to take care of yourself and love yourself. And," She extended her hand, "Promise me that you will never try to kill yourself again."

He held her hand and told, "I promise."

3.

He lived a few years after that. He had to fight with his trauma and depression all alone for the rest of his life. And he wished to die a lot more time.

But he never tried to kill himself again.

A girl's love helped him survive.

A love like the last colour of rainbow.