agony and anguish over an asshole’s lack of affection

All my friends think I'm over you,

That couldn't be farther from the truth.

Sure, I've put myself out there to other guys, but it's meant nothing.

You on the other hand always meant the universe.

You took the stars in my eyes and connected them to make constellations in my heart.

I think I'll always love you.

I know I'll always love you.

I miss you so damn much.

I was never to you what you were to me.

A girl can dream right?

But, what happens when those dreams become nightmares?

I never asked for much.

Most said I was settling.

But, to me, I was reaching.

Reaching through you.

I tried to climb all your walls,

Tried to extinguish the flames of hurt you hold within that no one else sees but me.

I tried to sand down your course exterior, to get to your raw soul.

But, that's all I ever did was try.

I never exceeded.

I never will.

And it kills me,

Soon you'll be gone and you won't even remember me.

Well, at least not the way I've always wanted you to.

I was always just the persistent and pathetic girl pining after you.

Most people say the blame is yours.

God, they are so wrong.

If I wasn't so awkward.

If I wasn't so needy and repulsive.

If your friends didn't hate me because I wasn't like them, although I wanted to be.

If I tried harder,

I could've had you.

But, at some point the soul gets worn out and spent.

Tired of waiting,

Wanting,

Wishing.

Just know, I'll always remember you.

You're the guy who took my heart,

And never gave it back.