I am blessed

I go back and read my words a lot

and think about the reflection they might make

it's hard to say just what I think of myself

but I know that I am more than heartache

I write about confusion

about decision making

about the pain that comes when doors are closed for you

I write about my life

and about others that I know

and still others that do not exist,

but that you might relate to

I am not miserable

I am grateful for my life

I believe that God has saved me from the evil of mankind

I am by no means perfect

and I still have (real) bad days

but despite the pain in my words

my life is pretty great.

I am blessed with a family who knows me and is true

in their affection and so I honor them

the best I can

I am blessed with a job that I find fulfilling

despite being incredibly frustrating

I am blessed with the ability to think abstractly and write.

I am blessed with youth and strength

even though I feel myself aging

I am blessed with pain and heartache

that I might recognize when I'm happy

I want to be healthy

kind, understanding

funny, smart, wealthy and wise

I want to raise a family

and work on my whole being

to develop the part of the world that I walk on

and treat it as though it were mine.