I Wish

I wish I mattered to you,

As much as you do to me.

I wish you could see 

Something special in me.

I wish you could hear,

The breaking of my heart,

Each time you overlook me.

I never mattered,

Forty-two years, it took me to see.

I was the invisible one,

The others just needed you more.

When I needed you, air I grasped,

When they needed you, you they grasped.

I wish I had mattered, I wish you could have seen,

Everything I've ever done, 

Everything I've achieved,

Was all a futile attempt,

For my mother to see me.

I wish I mattered to you,

But I know I never will.

Funny, you still matter to me,

Even now, the tears flow,

Because what I wish, 

Well, that's not how it is.