with you

you found me

hiding out 

beneath tissue and layers

of bad gags

not bagged gifts

frozen

stilled in terror 

that life was going

to kick my feet out from under me

and knock the wind from my lungs

then laugh. 

you found me

and I was never the same

as then 

when you grappled my demons

pulled me down

under your covers

pried out my secrets

made me laugh

like incoherent

and innocent and 

alive again 

under your spell

under you

with the weight of

nothing but love

as a force field

holding me down

holding me with bliss

and I was never the same.