My first

My first love, why do you promise things you knew you could never deliver, you told me once you would never hurt me again that you loved me and that you were sorry. So I forgave because I loved you so much that I could not let go and yet, you did it again I’ve been told to wait and see what happens because what if, but I don’t think I can. You hurt me terribly I don’t know why you stopped talking to me again. See this is what I thought till about a year ago, it took so many years for me to let go and now Im finally at peace. The thing is I'm older now, well not that much older, because it's only been three years but the point is I get it now I finally understand, we were never meant to be together. You were supposed to be a learning lesson in my life, back then all I could do was cry and be in constant heartbreak and wonder why, why was I not enough. I wanted to change who I was for you and not in a good way. But see the thing is I was enough then and I am enough now maybe not for you, but for myself and for my person, my other half. I know what to look for in the person I want to spend the rest of my life with, I know how to love myself for me and only me. Although it pained me, you were the lesson I needed.