Just some thoughts.

I am lost. One moment, I was a kid, the next, I've become a teenager who is supposed to contribute to the global economy and do something other than study and play games. Most of the kids around me are go getters. They do everything to get to the top and I admire all of them for that. Where I live, anything but the best is not acceptable. Me, I've fallen far behind. Far, far behind. I gave up on myself a long time ago. Sometimes I in my head I think 'Oh, today is the day where I am going to turn my life around!'. Nope. Not even remotely happening. I should probably be working instead of writing this. Can you guess what stage of life I am at now? Maybe that's where I went wrong. You know, the giving up on myself. I also don't trust myself very much. The few things I can trust myself to do: fail, waste my time, and generally be a very big disappointment to my parents. I have an older sibling. Now, this sibling is perfect. They've always been perfect: top of their class, everyone likes them, etc. I am less than a speck of dust compared to my sibling. It hurts to think that, but it's the truth. This is the third time I've tried to write something like this in the past few months. I am sorely lacking in the brain department. I'm sure a lot of people have felt like this at some point in their life. Everyone is always like, you're not alone, We've been there and done that! Even though, why do I still feel very alone? I'm delusional. I should go.

Until the next freakout and minor panic attack,

Have a Good Day! :)