i gave up religion
i gave up religion
and the business of understanding God
of feeling conviction when hes on top of me
of wondering if i'll even make it to heaven after all i've done
because all ive done is never going to be enough
im done with fear being use as a tool
to get 10 percent of 24k a year income
"God would want you to leave him"
and
"you're only upset because you're convicted"
i'm upset because i'm angry
i'm upset because i was locked in a room
with a bible and no friends
no one to talk about my feelings with
but at least i know John 3:16
at least i could brainwash myself
because sunday school was when a 14 year old girl
got her 30 minutes of social interaction for the week
religion is a tool people use to have purpose
or to have control over others
or simply for profit gain
but i can't sit in the pews
while the pastor and a nine year old boy are nowhere to be found
maybe religions not for me
im not sure whats true
but i know what i've seen