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"I remember, I remember, when I lost my mind...there was something so special about that day..."
Write at length about your experience with mental health. It can be your personal experience (as inspired by @graceinpoetry's recent challenge), the pain of dealing with a loved one's mental health struggles, or your reflections on the attitudes toward mental health and mental health care.

Is this who I am supposed to be?

"I am me."

"What am I supposed to do with this statement? Haven't I've been there for you?"

"I've been there for me. No one else has been there for me. Where were you those days I couldn't get out of bed, where the blankets would drown me with the guilt and pain from the outside world? Where were you when I blamed myself for everyone's problems? Or the days I barely could look at my mirror because I hated what stared back at me? Those days where I sit under the shower, while my thoughts yelled at me to end my life, because nothing was worth living for? Only to get up, wipe my tears and pretend like nothing happened?

"You looked happy; Remember all those sleepless nights, when we stood on the phone for hours. Those days where I had trouble understanding you, because you would speak like someone was chasing you? ALL those days where we stood outside and laughed for hours, they weren't real? I didn't know you were suffering... You never said anything."

"I looked happy? More like I pretended or bottled everything inside. All you saw was the manic in me the sleepless nights, the crazy thoughts. You never saw me for me! This is me, the girl who doesn't want to get ready, the girl who cries herself to sleep every single day. The girl with anxiety and depression, a girl diagnosed with Bipolar. THIS IS THE REAL ME. And I'm tired of hiding and pretending its exhausting. You won't be able to handle this, please leave me alone. Just like everyone does. Run away while you can. There isn't anything worth staying for.

"I am in love with you, the real you. I always been here for you, please don't push me away. I promise I'll be there for you. When your happy, when your sad. When you don't feel like being here, I will be the one to remind you that your life is worth fighting for, PLEASE!

IS THIS WHO I AM SUPPOSED TO BE? THERE IS NO WAY OUT.

"I am sorry, I will always love you. But I have made my choice, I can't continue to live in a world where I can't love myself and am buried in my sadness. I can't live in a world where they tell me it's all in my head, or to just snap out of it. I've been struggling for quite some time now; I've been dead for a while now, so I'll make it true, goodbye, I love you ---

she jumped,

"NO!"

he jumped

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