Exhausted
I’m getting so tired
of having to convince myself
it’s worth it to stay alive.
Always an uphill battle.
No love, no life, no future.
Just fighting and fighting
and for what?
As I watch everything fall apart
anyway.
I’m punching brick walls,
breaking my bones,
knuckles all bloody.
I could stand still
and let the flies eat away
at this decaying corpse of a body.
I want to shield my kids
from this shitstorm.
Keep their eyes closed
to the horrors and monsters.
But I’m afraid
I’m going to be called the monster.
I’m going to be blamed
for this asteroid that fell on my head.
And here I am,
no love, no life, no future.
A marionette being pulled
by some hellish puppet master
who apparently loves nothing more
than tearing lives to pieces.
I’m getting so tired
of having to convince myself
it’s worth it to stay alive.
But I have to find a way
for the sake of my kids.
They’re all I’ve got
until they’re gone too
just like everyone else.