call him Casper
I gave you everything.
or at least what my childhood self thought everything was
I let myself play pretend with the memory
as if I hadn’t given you the best of me
you slipped yourself out of my life easier than you had slipped in
and it’s not like you owed me a damn thing
but I thought the time spent meant you would at least say goodbye
But you were playing games.
and when you passed GO, you collected your $200 and left me behind
losing a game I didn’t know I was playing
and I’m left paying rent on the space you take up in my mind
wondering why I care less about you and more about the way you left
and I think back to the last time that I saw you.
when I left a can open on the table
jenga blocks spilling on the floor
I let you spin my head round
half a drink in, losing the game and my judgment
only it wasn’t really lost
I chose to leave it behind
and I wonder if it’s still sitting there
the way my last text is still sitting on your phone
wondering when all these games really end