Eagerly awaiting until many tomorrows...

to become affianced to the grim reaper,

who never promised me a rose garden

nor crystal clear pool of fragrant delight

to accompany last living breath

before succumbing into the Soundgarden

of a black hole sun

re: the void of nothingness

with absolute zero remembrance of things past.

Suicidal ideation in tandem

with purposelessness

(nihilistic existentialism exponentially

increasing since my halflife ago),

and most importantly

cursed with flat limp hair,

which serious crisis undermines reason

to write reasonable poetic expression

spurs the notion to traverse consciousness,

and painlessly segway

into the hereafter

(and maybe reincarnated into a heifer)

on a broken wing and a prayer.

No glorious notion of heaven

(nor belief in some omnipotent supreme creator,

who will be instrumental

uniting those meeting their demise)

with dead souls doth explain

zealousness toward what happens to human body

very soon after they – give up the ghost

(second person singular) and die,

yet intimation fostered

linkedin to dulling senses of mine,

that allow, enable,

and provide means to see or hear,

cuz already at threescore and five

revolutions clocked around the sun

post January thirteenth

two thousand and twenty four

increased insightfulness brings to mind,

a quickening uptick courtesy senescence

whereby aural and visual deterioration occur

at what appear faster clip

than when I happened to be younger

within the lovely bones of this sensate being,

who finds himself sensitive to loud sounds

discovered audiological test administered

hearing loss at extreme high and low ranges

similarly recognizing even the largest sized letters

on the Snellen eye chart

fraught with greater difficulty

particularly without wearing corrective eyewear.

After querying Google concerning a medical term for hearing loss of high and low frequencies, the closest response came back as follows.

While there isn't a single, universally accepted term for hearing loss affecting both high and low frequencies, it would typically be described as a "mixed frequency hearing loss" or "broadband hearing loss" on an audiogram, indicating significant hearing loss across a wide range of frequencies, including both high and low tones.

Before acquiescing to the afterlife,

I bolster maximum body, mind and spirit triage

aware declining senescence

affects physical, mental and spiritual well being

what fluke roll of the genetic dice throw

wrought yours truly (me),

whose latent potential

hijacked (to Cuba) thyself,

an anomaly sexagenarian

forever stunted socially courtesy

courting The Pale Horseman

when just a lad

of approximately a dozen years

of longevity since being born

thirteen days into

the first month of nineteen fifty nine,

when according

to most Western cultural interpretations,

being born on January 13, 1959,

would not be considered

particularly auspicious or unlucky;

it's simply a regular birthdate

with no inherent positive

or negative connotations

associated with it in mainstream beliefs.

Perhaps, cuz I (the male offspring

from both deceased parents,

especially my father –

the renown Chemist B.B. Harris,

and to a slightly lesser extent

the late culinary cuisine queen

Harmit Harms Kuritsky -

the gal whose troth he pledged

while holding some

bubbling sinister looking flask in hand

on their first guinea pig type date

encouraged incurred genetic yen

that burned from without the buns of this son)

possesses a pyromaniacal streak,

no surprise cremation would be my choice

of post life treatment videlicet

mine grateful dead as a doornail

cadaver formerly yours truly.

Believe it or not, a dead doornail is actually a thing. It's a medieval carpentry term for a nail that's been “clinched” — hammered into a door with any protruding part hammered flat. It wasn't going anywhere, making the doornail “dead” and unfit for future use.