If I wrote myselves letters

My fingers are trembling but that's not the worst of my problems. You see, I can't seem to figure out my name. That problem, on the ranking scale, is probably second. The first problem is either the looming threat of being sent back to an abusive household or the secrecy, masking, and general gaslighting related to my disabilities. There's also the dictator that just took over my country but I don't think I have to worry about that for another month or two.

Huh, reading that over again I am starting to understand why I have anxiety. Let's look at these problems starting with what I think will be the easiest to solve. I should be able to find my name on a letter or something. Let's do that.

(five minutes later)

Ok, I'm back and I found three letters all addressed to different people. As far as I know I live alone. Now I'm more worried, moving on.

The next easiest thing to solve is the trembling fingers. Reasons they are shaking could include low blood sugar, anxiety, an alter being close to the front who.... I don't know. Let's just assume its anxiety. I have some medication for that but I don't want to take it because it makes it kinda hard for me to think and the disassociation and ADHD are already doing that. Let's go to my next problem. I'm not even going to try to solve problem number one so lets go get another list out of storage. Hmm, this one has a bunch of sports injuries: dislocated thumb, foot bent over backwards and now it hurts, it happened to the other foot, now the other thumb hurts as well. It seems I get into trouble pretty regularly.

Ok, I'm just going to put these lists of useless problems away and go home, wherever that is. See you never, but if you could send money for a therapist it would be appreciated.

P.S: I forgot who I was sending this too. From the lack of greeting it looks like I'm sending it to myself.

P.S. P.S: Good night.