you inside me
it's funny how things change
so rapidly
so quick
you can't put your finger on the moment
before you are sent into spins
finding yourself on the other side
half way around full circle
competing with yourself
and you feel like a lost cause
rejected
pacified
sent as far as earth will let one be sent away
you feel incomplete in this new oneness
when all the times you can recollect
in a past not far left behind
was you
filling in the emptiness
was you
making me whole
now I awake
after all the pushing and pulling
and tearing out my hair
and being sent a half a world away
I find myself filling in my own self
finding completeness without you
and wondering how could I have ever thought
I needed you
when the whole time you were
kicking and screaming
from inside of me
trying to get out
trying to be rid of me
of us
it never was
it never was
you only filled in the spaces
that you also emptied
sending my very self
out against me
it was you
it was you
that made me empty
in the first place
it's by gods graces
that I'm half a world away from you
or I might decide to detonate
and rid this whole damn world
of your face.
I'm glad I realized how much you were so afraid to love
because all you feel is hate
all you do is destroy the beauty in things
self included
so I guess I'll leave you to it
you will self destruct yourself
eventually
I already know
so I guess I'll keep my hands to myself
and just enjoy the show.