Addiction

Our times together I remember well, you took me to heaven, then left me in Hell. Going back to a place I survived, disgusted I let it in, allowing it to control my LIFE. Telling myself I was just fine, no need to worry, I was not an addict, I did not cross the LINE.

The desperation, the weakness, the need, the ups & downs, the invincibility, the manipulation. ... the FALL.

You get on a ride and keep going higher, past the skies, the clouds, past the stars, ..... and HEAVEN, if your lucky.

Or, darkness, ugliness, emptiness, shame, pain, and greed, .... HELL.

Who did you take with you, who did you hurt, embarrass, let down, deceive, FORGET.

Money lost, property, your dreams, ambitions, loss of respect, dignity, people, love....YOURSELF.

Never be fooled that the Addiction is over, lurking, watching, tempting your thirst, ready to attack the first sign of ..... WEAKNESS.

This is a part of who you are, move on, what's been done is done this you cannot change, make amends, find your peace, accept the falls, but never FORGET.

Recovered Addict

Clean since 01/03/2011