Questioning Love

I wish I had words to fill up the hole

These weeks and months are

      taking a toll

I see your face when I look at the sky

I can't replace all the time 

      that's gone by

I often wonder how long I would last

If all that we are was now in the past

What would I do if you 

      never came back?

I think my life would be totally black

I also wonder if you'd feel the same

If we were playing a much different game

We had what we needed and you 

       were right here

Would your love for me still be so clear?

I've never doubted my own love for you

But your love for me? I can't be so sure

I'm starting to feel like you never were here

This makes my stomach go 

      ice cold with fear

That all that we have was only a dream

Or something short term like 

      vanilla ice cream

I want to find peace even when you're gone

But I'm afraid if I do, it would feel wrong

I feel like if I were okay without you

That all that I'm afraid of is sure

      to be true

If I felt fine without you around

Could it really be love that we've found?

It doesn't matter because I'm not okay

I just wait and long for the pass 

      of each day

I wish that time would go extra fast

That way this insane nightmare can't last

Every time it happens, I finally feel hope

They're sure to remind me that

      hope is a joke

It truly appalls me that they 

      have such power

If things were reversed, how much

      would they cower?

It isn't people who are worthy and just

Who get the positions that 

      require such trust

Cops, guards, lawyers, and judges

Very few are above childish grudges

The freedom and lives and futures 

      of so many

Are subject to corruption, 

      no mercy, not any

The judge is a man who used to be a lawyer

Well lawyers are just about as honest 

      as Tom Sawyer

It astounds me that these unfeeling fucks

Have complete authority to 

     line up our ducks

Do these judges ever get questioned?

Maybe now and then under 

      highest discretion

When are we going to stand up and fight?

When will our people see 

      they have rights?

We still have our arms and we are many 

It won't be long tho til we 

      don't have any

No longer can we really stand up and rave 

The land of the free and the 

      home of the brave

Freedom isn't a reality here

And this gets more true year after year

But back to the issue of 

       the me and the you

I guess it's something that I always knew

Is that I love you with all of my heart

And I never again want us 

       to 

          be

             apart.