Dad threatens to leave but stays for me.

I am a happy, normal kid.

I meet my very first friends.

I get sick very easily.

I start school and meet a new best friend.

I learn that some people don’t value friendships.

I am bullied and never want to go to school.

My new best friend helps me through everything.

I have to leave my hometown and have no friends.

I must face death for the first time.

I make new friends but still hate school.

I am never truly happy.

I find people to pick up my broken pieces.

Sleep doesn’t come.

I somehow feel your purple, acid-washed tee against my skin

My bare legs against your thread bare comforter, wrapping around your waist

I somehow hear your shallow breath that you can rarely catch

I wonder if I rolled over and woke you

I wonder if your fingers curled on my waist and your eyes hit my own

I wonder if I hadn’t held back

And I wonder why I ever wondered.