In July 2017 I met my mom, meema, and my brother.

In August 2017 I met 3 of my cousins, 2 uncles and 2 aunts.

Now I spend time in Maine and Cape Cod with my aunts. her husbands family, my brother and cousins.

My brother went with his moms side so he’s always spent time with them so all my cousins cousins think my brother is also their cousin and it bothers me because neither of us are and I jst don’t feel like I fit in in their family and I don’t get along with one of my cousins cousins because she doesn’t like me and I just don’t know what to do because she’s a little perfect angel and I know if I told anyone they wouldn’t believe me or wouldn’t care. She doesn’t like me unless I can buy her something and I just don’t fit in but, I can’t say anything so this summer is just going to be awkward. Help.

I don’t ever get along with my brother because he says he doesn’t like me and can’t stand me and I don’t know if thats true I hope it’s not because I’ve just always wanted a brother and I don’t know what to do ugh. I want to go to Maine and Cape Cod but, I don't want to argue with my cousins cousin.

I was born into a bit of an unstable family

The first year I was taken away from my mom

When I was 2 years old my dad overdosed

At 3 I lost all contact with my moms side

At 4 I started going with my aunt on Saturdays

I stared spending time with uncle Fridays and Sundays

I go everywhere with my other aunt and cousins

At 7 I get curious about my parents

I stop spending as much time with my aunt

At 9 I begin therapy for my behavioral issues

I stop therapy at 10 because it doesn't help

I stop spending time with my uncle

My aunt dies I meet my mom and family

At 13 I know my whole family and everything is okay

It's not perfect but, it's getting better

Don't let getting one object control your life

Find happiness in what you want to do in your life

Don't follow people that don't deserve you

Succeed in your lifetime without people or objects holding you back

"If you want a happy life, tie it to a goal, not people or objects."

~Albert Einstein

Hear The waves crashing against the sand

See the Golden brown sand

Smell the salty ocean

Hear the people laughing

See The boats in the distance

Smell the delicious food.

In the end nothing changes.

People still continue to do the same things that drove people to that horrible point.

We still harass. We still bully. We still don't care.

In the end our world is still cruel.

Our world still can't handle differences.

In the end we're all still insecure.

We're all unhappy and anxious.

We're still selfish.

We're going to keep driving people to that point.

In the end we're not going to change and we're just going to let it keep happening.

In the end maybe it's better if we leave this world.

This cruel, horrible world.

In the end I hope it gets better.

In the end I want to believe in will.

In the end no matter how much I want to believe it will,

I don't believe it will