As much as possible I don’t like to dwell on the should’ves, could’ves, would’ves, the what ifs and the if onlys. I don’t like to think of questions I don’t have an answer to.

Yes I do have some regrets, but what happened already happened, there’s no way I could change it.

Yes I do have dreams and hopes for the future, and there’s no certainty of what’s to happen. Nobody can tell for sure. Just as there is a possibility of it happening, is also the possibility of it not happening. I’m an ‘I’ll cross the bridge when I get there’ kind of person. But I am hopeful of what’s to come.

I don’t want to close any doors. Today I might say no to things I unknowingly will say yes to in the future because everything changes.

The only thing I can surely speak for, and the only thing I certainly have a hold on to is the now, the present, today, right in this moment.

So I want to live today the way I wanted to, that no matter the outcome of my actions and decisions will be, I will look back to this day and know that I don’t have any regrets because I lived the way I wanted to.

I want to live today building on the foundation of the future that I want, so that the uncertain blurry picture will somehow start to be clear, so that the future that I once dreamed of will become a reality.

Live for the now so you wouldn’t have any should’ves, could’ves, would’ves and if onlys.

Live for the now and start giving an answer to those what ifs.

Live now.

I’m not gonna tell you what his likes and dislikes are, it’s all part of you getting to know each other.

I’m not gonna tell you how he is, and who he is the way I saw him, I want you to see him and know him with your own eyes.

Don’t let your love be limited by his past, nor of yours. Don’t let other’s opinions affect your relationship. This is your relationship, you and him. It is up to the two of you how the story goes.

So love him the way you know how to love. Love him the way you think he deserves to be loved. Love him the way you want to be loved.

He loves my silky straight hair

It’s softness and the fruity scent from the shampoo

He loves my dark brown eyes and how I look into his too

He loves my tiny waist where he wraps his arms around

He loves my voice and the noises I make as sounds

He loves my lips, moist, kissable, pink

He loves my warm, soft, smooth skin

He said he loves me more than words could say

These words he told me, I heard him tell another woman the today

I often wonder the ending to our story

Will it really be you and me

Will it be the happy ever after I always wanted it to be

But life ain’t a fairytale and this isn’t the movies

I was so looking forward to our ending,

Then I realized I’m still at the beginning

As I was about to start the prologue

You already handed me the epilogue

They say love comes with pain

So how do you unfeel all these feelings

Because even after the heartbreak

Even after all the pain

You know deep down you still love him

Because it wouldn’t hurt if you didn’t love

But even if it hurts,

you still welcome the pain

Because that is how you love

How do you unlove someone

How do you get over a heartbreak

Move on they’ll say

Two simple words but is very hard to do

So here is what I tell you

Love with all your heart

Love until your love runs out

Love together with the pain

You may falter, but don’t let it break you

Let it mold you into the diamond that you are

And proudly show off your scars

Because to unlove someone is to love

And love always comes with pain

So love him with all your love for one last time

Love him and embrace the pain

Love him until you don’t

Red is color we often associate with love.

Why? I randomly asked myself

Maybe because it is the color of the heart,

the symbol of love,

the one that pumps up the red liquid to keep us alive,

so maybe it is a way of saying this color that gives us life equates to love.

That is the answer I came up with to convince myself,

but after I met him I realized that love comes in many colors.

I am no artist,

I was never good with art and so was he,

but he painted my world differently.

Brown,

a color I do not often reach out to in a box of crayons,

a color that has become my favorite after his eyes met mine

It isn’t an unusual eye color, but it fit perfectly on his face

His beautiful deep brown eyes that sucked me into a wonderful world of our own every time I look at it.

He is yellow, like the sun that gave light to the world to show me its beauty.

Being with him made me feel blue,

not the sad or lonely feeling the color has metaphorically,

but blue,

as free as the ocean and the sky,

without any limits, endless and no boundaries.

Black,

because even in darkness where my eyes couldn’t see,

I wasn’t scared because he made me feel safe,

he made me feel loved.

White,

aside from peace and serenity,

he gave me white like a blank canvas to help me see the beauty of my own colors

There are still so many colors of him I have yet seen,

and with my own colors we will keep on painting our story,

And keep on looking for the colors of love

#colors

#love

They say action speaks louder than words,

But sometimes they remain unheard

They have listened to my song for you

Yet you don't have even any clue

Inaudible, no matter how loud I shout

My feelings coming out of my mouth

These will all remain inaudible,

Because your eyes can see, but you are blind,

Your heart beats, but it cannot hear my heart playing the same beats

I'm drawn to you

I can't help but look and think about you

You are like a magnet

pulling my eye towards you

I like it most when our eyes meet

It makes me think if you're drawn to me too

You immediately caught my eye

I've tried denying, suppressing ny feelings for you

But everytime I see you my heart beats louder

Now there's no more denying it

It's you and only you that I want

I wish and hope for something to happen, even just a simple smile before this school year ends