Don’t tell me who to be.
I echoed on a pixalited screen.
Tiny squares of all my dreams.
Pieced together by a person I'm not.
Dreams they dreamt for me with their own thought.
But I refuse to be another lost soul,
Because deep inside I know what makes me whole.
You have your own life, I'll let you know.
If you can't respect mine, you should go.
Uncertainty
Certainty is a drug in this day and age. People expect it of themselves and others, be it in the workplace, homelife, or spiritually and emotionally.
And yet, one of the most popular sayings and bumper stickers I see are, “Not all who wander are lost”.
What?
Certainty makes each sleepless night, all the pain, all the loneliness, all the indescribable emotions worth it because in the straining of life there’s still certainty waiting at the door.
It’s almost as though uncertainty is some sort of phase that we all go through. Most people that I know try to play it off like they don’t deal with uncertainty, which is bull. Life is never sure.
The most confident people struggle with doubt and fear.
It’s become a trend to say that you’re not uncertain, that you have absolute certainty that your dreams, plans, or thought processes will come to fruition. I’m really not sure why, because in my opinion to have that kind of arrogance in life would absolutely lead to my face planting on concrete.
Confidence and arrogance are two very different things, but the line has become fuzzy in recent years. There’s so many political candidates and celebrities blurring the line. Most celebrities, I think, don’t understand how much influence they have and in their lives they have to ride the line between confidence and arrogance with paparazzi.
Arrogance is confidence without kindness, it doesn’t care who it runs over, maims, or disparages as long as the person it inhabits is made to look strong and powerful. Confidence is strong and kind. Confidence doesn’t demand one perspective or path to where it has gotten. But confidence is quickly disappearing from society. It’s dangerous to be authentic. It’s so much easier to loudly bleat your strength, certainty, and unwavering ability to be stronger than doubt, fear, or personal circumstances.
Life is full of uncertainty, and being certain of that is certainly my only certainty.
You don’t have to be certain.
Nobody is certain.
People act certain because it’s too scary to admit that they aren’t.
You don’t have to be like everyone else.
Embrace Uncertainty.
Sincerely Yours,
The
Undefeated
Filling Holes
There ought to be a hole,
A place to build a tree.
One of sanctuary;
For the guarded to rest on a knee.
There ought to be another hole,
To burry demons underground.
One to keep them safe;
Lost and never found.
Perhaps another hole to add.
Maybe a million more?
Just another home for the bad,
Deep down in the floor.
Listen for it
“People say I love you all the time - when they say, ‘take an umbrella, it’s raining,’ or ‘hurry back,’ or even ‘watch out, you’ll break your neck.’ There are hundreds of ways of wording it - you just have to listen for it, my dear.”
— The Curious Savage (John Patrick)
But people say “I don’t love you” in little ways too. The way
they leave blackholes in your chest
when you leave them with a thousand drunken apologies. The way
they would lead the butterflies into your stomach
and swat them all from the inside. The way they
break their promise of waiting
for you at the other end of the aisle of a
half garden, half beach wedding. The way they let you wake up
to dial tones, and empty beer bottles on a Christmas morning. Maybe
you have to pay attention too. Maybe
it’s time for you to leave.
Glitter
Glitter.
Hundreds of thousands of dots in the air.
Moving, moving,
Getting stuck in my hair.
Reflecting every light,
Speckles ignite.
Dancing in the room,
A stunning monsoon.
Twisting in my sight,
Bounding off the floor.
Staring at the sky,
Talking; no more.
Gliding in the dust,
Our hearts,
Once made,
of love and trust.
Deep into the night,
Glitter,
Tonight.