A walk in darkness

Feeling for light

Bumping your toe on the hard surface of determination

Toppled over onto the sun

Basking in the rays, as light shines through you and into the people unseen

Forming words with the softness of clouds

Speaking for the silenced

Healing wounds dripping like a rainstorm

Bellowing the joy and pain from deep within

Your soul

Mind

& being

Looking like he was dipped in salad dressing and chicken gravy

He walked across the room with more grace than my spikey hair that constantly disobeyed the gel

His tailored pants hugged his drumstick feet

Sharper than the cheap pharmacy razor that slices away at my sexy....

Legs

Hair laying so smoothly on his perfectly shaped head

I licked my lips as I imagined that he smelled as good as he looked

Pressing my lips closed

I tried to breathe normally as he glided in my direction

Die

Breathe

Leave

Live

I needed a pie chart to weigh my options

Leaving seemed to have more data in its favor

My husband just called

I needed to be alive tomorrow to take my kid to school

And my difficulty breathing was way less fun than speaking to a stranger in the grocery store on a saturday morning.

I went home...

Warned.

A virgin mary

I stood embarrased and confused

Caressing the stretched skin that held the 3 month old human I had conceived mysteriously

A changed life

Adjusted ideals

Tides of thoughts crashing on my shore of anxiety

Sigh

A long hard thought of the human I was now responsible for overwhelmed the calmness I tried to exude

As the tears flowed

The cold from my bedroom windows brushed against my exposed body

I pulled the sheet over my head

Awake from the strangest dream I’d had this week.