Settling
Heartbreak is knowing you are never anybody’s first choice! ! ! ! ! ! !
I WOULD WALK A MILE
I would walk a mile
step inside your shoes
So I could know what's going on
I would walk a mile
Step inside your shoes
So I could figure out what's wrong
I want to understand your struggles
and what your going through
So you know you're not alone
and that I am here with you
I know it might seem hopeless
You're shaken to the core
But I'll be here to show you
just what friends are for
I would walk a mile
Step inside your shoes
Is there's anything that I can do
I would walk a mile
Step inside your shoes
To try to see the world the way you do
I want to understand your struggles
and what your going through
So you know you're not alone
and that I am here with you
I know it might seem hopeless
You're shaken to the core
But I'll be here to show you
just what friends are for
Everybody needs somebody else
To make the load a little lighter
Everybody needs to lend a helping hand
to make the world a little brighter
I want to understand your struggles
and what your going through
So you know you're not alone
and that I am here with you
I know it might seem hopeless
You're shaken to the core
But I'll be here to show you
just what friends are for
I would walk a mile
Step inside your shoes
Is there's anything that I can do
I would walk a mile
Step inside your shoes
To try to see the world the way you do
Little Piggies
See the little piggies
in their piggy world
if you would think about it
it would be absurd
spending all the day
wallowing in mud
as if they could fall in love
see all the little piggies
with there piggy friends
living life just like
the party never ends
they never wish upon
the stars that are above
that they could fall in love
do you feel sorry for the little piggies
and what they have to do
and when there lives are finally over
will it mean as much as you
see all the little piggies
live their piggy lives
Never have a piggy care
never hear a piggy cries
there’s just no way to comprehend
When pushing comes to shove
if piggies fall in love
Once upon a Time
Once upon a time
You were in my heart
Up until the time
You tore it all apart
and left me with my tears
trying to understand
Why you are not here
holding on, holding to my hand
Once upon a time
I was filled with joy
I could not believe
You let me be your toy
Then you just got bored
as people tend to do
You threw away your toy
That's what I was, what I was to you
Once upon a time
I could show my face
Now everywhere I go
I feel like a disgrace
People stop and stare
They tell me I'm a fool
I'd do it all again
If I could be, If I could be with you
Fruit Loops?
The Mandela Effect is when something is misremembered by a whole bunch of people. The reason it is called the Mandela Effect is because the first notice of it was when a whole lot of people remember that Mandela died in prison. They recall vivid details about the event, when it happened, how world leaders reacted to the news. The only problem was that Mandela did not die in prison. He was released from prison and eventually became the president of South Africa. However, people will swear that they remember him dying in prison.
Since then a lot of other things have been misremembered. Like whether the candy bar Kit-Kat has a hyphen in it's name or not. Whether a character in the James Bond file Moonraker is wearing braces or if the continent of Australia is just too darn far North.
Now, there are people that firmly believe that when the changes occur it's because people are accidentally stumbling into a different dimension where things played out a little differently than the one they remember. Other people believe it's a mass hypnosis experiment conducted by the government (surly the government would conduct experiments on it's own people!!!) However, the simplest explanation is probably the best and that is that people's memory is just faulty.
Having said all that I did experience one minor Mandela Effect that still kind of trips me out if I think about it. When I first heard of the Mandela Effect there were people who claimed that the name of the Kellog's cereal "FRUIT LOOPS" was spelled "FROOT LOOPS". Then I thought "Hey, I remember fruit loops being spelled FROOT LOOPS too". So I looked it up on the internet but the internet said it was spelled "FRUIT LOOPS" and had always been "FRUIT LOOPS".
I checked the cereal ilse of my local grocery store and verified that "FRUIT LOOPS" was indeed spelled "FRUIT LOOPS" on the cereal box. I was perfectly willing to admit that my memory was faulty, although I was sure that it wasn't.
I forgot about it and about 8 months pass. I had completely forgotten about the Madela effect and one day it came back into my memory. So I thought I would check to see if "FRUIT LOOPS" was still spelled the same and it wasn't!!!!!! It went back to being spelled "FROOT LOOPS"!!! I checked the cereal isle and it indeed had changed back.
Now if you check the internet you will find that "froot loops" was indeed spelled "fruit loops" but the name was changed to "froot loops" in 1963. That was well before I was born. The name change of a cereal isn't a big deal but if I were conducting experiments on altering people perception of reality like that, I would do it on something that's not a big deal like the name of a cereal and see how many people freak out about it. Having said that the mind works in strange ways and sometimes a lot of people's minds work in the same strange way. That's probably what is going on.
It’s my Birthday!
I was so excited. Sixteen years ago today was the most important day in the history of the world. Well, maybe not for everyone else but it was a pretty important day to me. To celebrate it I had to go to school. Yeah, I know that sucks and while no one would fault me for ditching school on my birthday I decided to go anyway. I'm not really the type to act outside the box.
Of course no one wishes me a happy birthday because no one knows but that's okay. I wake up early and make myself some bacon and eggs. Add a glass of orange juice and it's perfect. I have to make sure my birthday is perfect. It's not like any one else cares it's my birthday. I get through school without incident and after school I take myself bowling. I've been bowling for several years and there's nothing more thrilling than rolling a 16 pound ball down the lane and watching all 10 pins go down in one shot.
After bowling I go home and make myself a burger with sauteed onions and mushrooms. Sure, I have parents and a sister but they are no where to be found. I don't care though because I'm in heaven. After having a piece of ice cream cake with bits of Andy's Mints on it my birthday is complete. My birthday was perfect. I did not need to spend it with anyone. I did just what I wanted.
Torture
Sure, if you are both disciplined and into torturing yourself. However, it's easy to be friends with someone you are not attracted to.
Canceled
Julie woke from a deep sleep. She leaped out of bed and greeted the morning with a smile. It's going to be another amazing day she thought to herself and why wouldn't it be. Everybody loved her. She was kind and thoughtful and popular. She was beyond reproach. Everywhere she went it felt like the world was giving her a big hug. She took the appropriate amount of time to adjust her appearance and then she was off to face the day but something felt off. She couldn't quite put her finger on it but what had happened was that the world missed giving her a hug to start the day.
On her way to school she noticed that there was something missing and then it hit her. At this point in the day she had usually received several texts from various people regarding various different things. She had always been "in the loop" so to speak but today was different. She checked her mobile device and learned that she had not received any texts at all. "That is so odd" she thought to herself. On a normal day she phone would be "blowing up" but today it's as dead as a door nail.
When she got to school it seemed like people were avoiding her. Even her best friend didn't have the time of day to give to her. "What is wrong with everyone?" she thought. Then the most worst-est most horrible thought ever hit her, What if she had been canceled? Being canceled is the worst-est possible thing that can happen to you. You are practically a non person at that point. She texted who she thought was her best friend. Usually when she texts her best friend she gets a response immediately but this time she didn't. In fact she got no response at all. It was at this time that the bell rang for class. She had to get moving.
When she got to her first class she noticed that someone was sitting in her desk. "Could I have my seat back please?" She politely asked the offending student. "I don't see your name on it." The student responded before laughing in Julie's face. "That was rude" thought Julie. She went up to the teacher. "Excuse me?" she said politely.
"What can I do for you?" The teacher asked matter of factually.
"That student is sitting in at my desk." Julie offered as an explanation.
"And you are?" The teacher followed up.
"Julie" Julie responded.
"You must be new. Just sit anywhere that's open." The teacher answered.
"I'm not new. I've been in the school district my entire life." Julie protested.
"I see. It looks like you're not feeling well." The teacher writes something on a peice of paper, "Here is a pass to go to the nurse." The teacher hands the piece of paper to Julie. Julie takes the piece of paper and heads to the nurses office. Julie had no idea what was going on. It's like the entire world had forgotten her existence.
She walked into the nurses office and sat down feeling dejected. The nurse noticed she was feeling blue and sat down next to her. "What's wrong?" the nurse asked in an extra sweet concerned sounding voice.
"I just feel like I've been canceled." Julie replied, "Nobody knows who I am. I don't even know who I am."
The nurse put her arm around Julie. "I get that a lot." The nurse responded, "But it's okay if you're not getting validation 24/7. It doesn't mean that you're any less important."
"Of course it does." Julie protested, "People only pay attention to you if you're important. If no one is paying attention to you that means your a nobody. You might as well not even exist."
"No one pays attention to me and I feel just fine." The nurse offered.
"I'm sorry to hear that." Julie answered.
"Look, I know it seems like it's the end of the world, but you're going to be fine." The nurse assured.
"What if no one ever remembers me?" Julie asked almost sobbing.
"Who are you anyway?" The nurse asks.
"Julie" Julie says slow and evenly.
"I've never heard of you." The nurse answers disturbed.
"I know, that's my problem." Julie confirms.
"Well," the nurse finally says, "You just rest for awhile and we'll get to the bottom of it. okay?"
"Okay" Julie says and she lays down to rest.
Longing for You
I have longed for you a thousand nights
How could fate have cursed me so
To look at you from such a distance
But to never get any closer
If only I could touch your skin
If only I could bite your neck
and lick the blood that slowly drips down your back
I would make for you a bed of roses even though I'm allergic to them
and we would lie down our bodies entwined in lustful flesh
My inncessent sneezing covering you in disguting bodily fluid
I would bury my head in your breast in a vain attempt to clear the air passages of my nose
blowing out and wiping it on your tender skin
You would pull me closer depriving me of air until I pass out
You would run your fingers through my head and I lay there convulsing
sympathetic you would leave me there to suffer while you take a shower to wash all the mucus off your body.
When I wake up I text you to make sure you are alright but I get no response.