Loneliness As A Reason

Most persons aim to have someone.

Even if the person isn't exactly who they want.

But I seriously wonder...

Why bother? Why lead them on?

Are you that desperate to fill that empty void?

To avoid the loneliness?

To not be alone?

Even if it means using another? Stringing them along for your own benefit?

Or atleast under the guise of mutal benefits?

Don't you think that's somewhat...cruel?

No? You prefer to know you have someone to call yours?

Even if you aren't truly theirs in your mind?

Even when you know, you fear commitment?

Wow, the human race....

Why do we fear being alone with ourselves?

To spend time in solitude to understand and enjoy our own company?

Do you truly know yourself?

Or do you only accept who you are through the eyes of ours?

Awaiting their approvals....

Entering relationships to be defined by the affiliation?

As humans, we thrive in the interaction and company of others.

"We are social being."

But when is platonic relationships no longer enough?

When does one cross the line due to the need for intimacy, even if just at the companionship level?

When does one feel the need to be compassionate and reach out to another to comfort and be comforted?

Why do we as humans need it? Why do they as humans need it...

Is there a reason unrequited affections feel as strong as the mutal affection for some but not for others?

The yearning after another, who doesn't notice you or think of you beyond a platonic relation? #ForeverFriendzoned

Does persevering work?

Do you give up? Do you give up and move on?

But then, when you finally move on they notice you and want to move you up a few ranks?

Does one dowse the new flame and rekindle the old, as way to fulfill old desires?

Are there still sparks though?

Enough to start a 'new' fire from old wood?

Or do you add more wood to the new to keep it ablaze and even higher to engulf the small older remains, til nothing but the new, burns bright?

Is it cruel to just out a fire prematurely instead?

Just to rekindle a fire that is unstable and may never re-light?

Maybe even ruining an amazing fire for another than may be duller in comparison or outshine it, but risk it anyway?

Maybe even ruining the wood from the current fire for awhile, causing it to shiver in despair as you work to re-light the other?

Or maybe, it is more understandable to think of the old flame as 'first' and should be prioritized?

Is it from selfish desires to ensure a fire could burn using that wood, and it wasn't just empty desires? Just to be fulfilled and know you had no regrets?

Or would it be cruel to simple tell the person "You're too late, I've moved on"?

But...

What do you do when they are persistent?

What do you do when the old flame catches the leaves of mutual friendships?

How does one extinguish such a blaze?

But is it truly fair of the old flame and the leaves to even be pushing so hard to rekindle a fire they refused to let ablaze or even notice when it was onesided and smothered by another so close?

Hmmm, so much conflicts in the human world.

Sigh. It's sad really.

How does one fix your relations to how you desire without the manipulation of another and/ hurting them also?

Do we really want either of these fires to even be burning, but in fear of going cold and alone attempt to maintain atleast one?

Thought of any? Tell me. 

Originally written in Mar2015

Edited in Jun2017