It´s been weeks since we´d started working on deco, somehow all of it looks really pretty. Our poster and the stars got complimented by seniors as well. Everytime the credit was always given to me. It´s one of the first times I've ever got acknowledged and appreciated, it made me feel so happy. Today was the scary but exciting day of homecoming, sadly since I signed up for a set-up shift I have to get up at 8.

I grumble to myself as I walk into the leadership room, for the 6th time in a week. My eyes widen when I see that almost all of my class is here and I ran to sit next to my friend Lahna. She smiles and hugs me giggling about how excited she is for HO-CO.

¨I-i am too..¨, I say slightly high-pitched as I glance subtly at Tyler. He seemed to be watching our seniors as they were decorating the gym. I hoisted myself up and started stringing the lights around the gym. Excitedly hoping that maybe just maybe Tyler would come to HO-CO and maybe we could talk?

At HO-CO I sadly walk over to the droopy ticket counter out in the cold. My dress was a bit short but REALLY REALLY poofy. It looked like I was in 5th grade at one of those kiddy birthday parties. I boredly kick my feet in the air and just watch as all the passerby enter and leave as the night grows on.

It´s been a while since I´ve had a break. Seem´s like everyone around me takes them quite often. The bell rings and it startles me to the core. I guess I zoned out again, that was stupid I seriously hope no one saw that. I looked around and thankfully there wasn't many people paying attention. I flinch again as Lahna jumps onto me from behind.

¨You are so freaking..ugh...¨, I mumbled annoyedly.

Lahna just giggles and flicks my forehead. I groan and kick her leg softly but hard enough to hurt a bit. The blue class door of our leadership classroom opens revealing our tall but sweet TA Romeo. I rush in, the cold air is way too icy for my liking. As I sit at my ¨commission¨ table I see the rest of my group straggling in. My eyes land on a certain group member of mine, Tyler. It´s hard to explain what I feel over him but it´s definitely a new feeling for me. I´ve never had a crush before and once I even tried to search up what that could mean. All those results led me to believe I was asexual, well up until now. Tyler brings out something in me. He´s exactly what I´ve ever wanted in a boy, or even if I even had a type he´s exactly that. Noticeably tall, long wispy curtain bangs that always are in his eyes, and perfect lips that are upturned. Not only that but his cute hazel eyes are to DIE for.

Since we had to make a group chat for our publicity commission I had to add him in my socials. It´s so cute that he keeps cats as his profiles, and all the photos are of cute cats. The only thing is, he´s really quiet. He doesn´t talk much but somehow its really cute to me. He always has a neutral expression on his face but on the rare occasions he laughs it sounds so cute. I catch myself before I think more things about him. Why am I so head over heels? Do I really like him that much? Is it because he´s my first crush? Is this a normal thing to feel?

I glance over at him and our gazes meet just for a second...

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I watch as the TA finishes up and the bell rings loudly. It sounded different from the bells from middle school, that sound annoying but uncannily comforting. I turn to Lahna, who was looking at the schedule.

"So...wanna go to break?"

I got up and push in my metal chair. She follows and we out to the library where we promised to meet our friend "Prashi". I lean against the cold stone wall, the library here seems much bigger than the one at my middle school. Everyone here seems to know each other. Am I just not friendly enough? I got pulled out of my thoughts as Lahna and Prashi start squealing and hugging.

"Jeez keep it down will you two?"

Lahna scoffs, "Just cause you somehow turned emo over the summer doesn't mean we are?"

I laugh softly, Lahna definitely didn't lose her sense of humor over those two months during summer. They gossip about some things that happened to them over the summer, I occasionally join in on the gossip. Mostly I didn't have anything to share since I was in a whole other country during summer break. The things I could share were still too non-understandable. If I really did want to say it to them, I'm sure only Lahna would understand what I say.

Later on that day after math and biology, I walk over to some benches close to my next class. Lahna and Prashi were talking to like four people I completely didn't know.

"Hi..?"

Lahna looks over to me, "Oh this is sae, these people are some friends I made bestie! This is Vivi, cangie, Kate, Leha. Now we have a friend group totally better than um last years."

My face soured immediately, did she really have to bring that up? I sigh internally but keep up my facade of chillness to them.

"Sounds fun.."

They discuss about everything under the sun while I sit there thinking about the recent "developments" of my blank, empty life.

I watch as the TA finishes up and the bell rings loudly. It sounded different from the bells from middle school, that sound annoying but uncannily comforting. I turn to Lahna, who was looking at the schedule.

"So...wanna go to break?"

I got up and push in my metal chair. She follows and we out to the library where we promised to meet our friend "Prashi". I lean against the cold stone wall, the library here seems much bigger than the one at my middle school. Everyone here seems to know each other. Am I just not friendly enough? I got pulled out of my thoughts as Lahna and Prashi start squealing and hugging.

"Jeez keep it down will you two?"

Lahna scoffs, "Just cause you somehow turned emo over the summer doesn't mean we are?"

I laugh softly, Lahna definitely didn't lose her sense of humor over those two months during summer. They gossip about some things that happened to them over the summer, I occasionally join in on the gossip. Mostly I didn't have anything to share since I was in a whole other country during summer break. The things I could share were still too non-understandable. If I really did want to say it to them, I'm sure only Lahna would understand what I say.

Later on that day after math and biology, I walk over to some benches close to my next class. Lahna and Prashi were talking to like four people I completely didn't know.

"Hi..?"

Lahna looks over to me, "Oh this is sae, these people are some friends I made bestie! This is Vivi, cangie, Kate, Leha. Now we have a friend group totally better than um last years."

My face soured immediately, did she really have to bring that up? I sigh internally but keep up my facade of chillness to them.

"Sounds fun.."

They discuss about everything under the sun while I sit there thinking about the recent "developments" of my blank, empty life.

The cold school air hits my face, I can't believe middle school is already over now. It seemed like just days ago that I'd been in science class crying about a science fair project. But that's all over now I guess, like a already written page in a journal. Can't go rewrite it, can't go relive it.

I wait outside the leadership building, a larger building that was at any of the schools I've been to. I suddenly twitch recognizing the sound of my friend, Lahna. She's been my friend since 7th grade, and I hope she'll stay for the rest of my years. I laugh for the first time in awhile.

"Hi!"

Lahna doesn't say a word but just grins. We both head into leadership class together, watching as a lot of other freshmen join in. We sit next to each other at a table full of people I don't know. It seemed like a blank canvas just waiting to be painted, or a blank page in a journal to start a new journey's tale. And I was SO not ready for it. I could feel the blank future just waiting to be shown to me. But I guess...I guess I was too blind to see it.